糖果

没有字幕。所有都是在画面中感受到的。

绿色的饮料，白色的粉末，女孩Candy赤身躺在浴缸里，Dan躺在她旁边的地上，Candy突然窒息，Dan慌乱起来，他给Candy注射了一针，疯狂的摇着她，看着Candy醒过来，他松了口气坐到了水里。

从这个画面开始所有的爱都是有毒的，都是窒息的，都是无法自拔的，都是沉溺的，都是挣扎的，都是残忍的，都是相互伤害的，都是没有永远的。

只剩下爱情，大部分画面里都只有两个人，他们无可救药的爱着，所有的伤害都是递进的无法避免的。

终日里无所事事，只是吸毒和相爱，无法被父母祝福的结婚，在简陋的房间里，Dan神经质的看着电视，Candy在无法忍受的时候用烟灰缸砸向他的额头，血就流了下来。

他们在穷困潦倒的时候Candy做了妓女，Dan用钱换毒品。

他们有了孩子之后两个人还在没完没了的吸毒，床单越换越黄，他们保持的不变的姿势躺在床上，Candy挺着肚子在床上，Dan在卫生间，他们在忍受着毒瘾。孩子终于在他们的一直争执中没有了。他们搬到了郊外，Candy终于疯掉了，她在墙上写满了字，被送进医院。

Dan找到工作，重新生活。Candy来看他，他们接吻，象最初那样，那些甜美的味道。最终他们分开了，因为爱已经无法承受，那些欲望的诱惑是深渊里最甜的旧梦，梦醒时分到了。

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her...
oh Danny boy....
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.
Danny the daredevil.
Candy went missing.
The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business.
This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed.
My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
 I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god.
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum."


那些回忆 变成美妙的词语
变成五彩的文字出现在那个乱七八糟的家
Dan奋力的擦 却始终抹不去他们的痕迹

到那时我才发现candy确实是艺术家

「The future or the thing that gleamed. The present was so very, very good. I wasn't trying to wreck Candy's life. I was trying to make mine better. We wanted to share absolutely everything. Especially the best bits.」


「Here is the deepest secret that nobody knows. Here is the root of the root, and the bud of the bud, and the sky of the sky,in the tree called life, which grows higher than soul can hope, or mind can hide, and this is the one that is keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart. 」


「We'd found the secret glue that held all things together in a perfect place where the noise did not intrude. Our world was so very complete.」


「Everything we ever did. we did with the best of intentions, but events tumble! And the years pile up.The world is very bewildering to a junkie.」


「What do you think this is about? Sunday Lunch. It's a pretty simple thing. But with you two, there's no such thing as simple. It‘s the drugs! The drugs always come first. Do you have any idea what you have done to my family? To me? What happened to that beautiful little girl?」


「Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees. He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy. Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the afternoon of extravagant delight. Danny the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks. I want to try it your way this time. You came into my life really fast and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender. Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted. This is the business. This, is what we're after. With you inside me comes the hatch of death. And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again. The monster in the pool. We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked. And sometimes I hate you. Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness. You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth. Fly away sun. Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan. A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn. These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too. I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.」



「Everything's dead. Everything's turning blue.」


「And that was it. That was all that was scattered to the winds. Casper was gone. Schumann was lost. Candy was off getting better. The coast. Rehab. And I...was. I was just... The world was full of startling new concepts. I couldn't think.I couldn't breathe. I was waiting for her to come back. Because she was everything. She was everything to me. 」


「There's no going back. If you're given a reprieve, I think it is good to remember just how thin it is.」


「When you can stop, you don't want to. When you want to stop, you can't.」

關於毒品的電影, 看得太多了. 而看candy這套戲, 純粹只是因為這個名字.

電影開始時, 是dan的自白, 他細說他的candy, 聽到candy這名字, 頓時毛管楝. 由abbie cornish演candy最貼切不過, 她是那種甜到滿瀉的女孩. dan和candy瘋狂地的愛上對方, 他們從毒品中找到可以逃避現實,只容得下對方兩人的天堂, 從彼此的沉淪中找到如糖果般甜美的快樂.

全片由heaven, earth, hell三部份道出他們兩的愛情關係, 導演沒有刻意去說教, 只是將現實放在大家眼前, 卻又拍得如夢如詩的美麗, 不知這片子有多少是忠於原著, 儘管有不少不完美之處, 觀眾只要用心去感受那種愛到沉淪至自我摧毀的淒美就夠了.

若你明白愛可以愛到不能自拔, 看這套片一定會覺得很痛, 痛得只好放手.

糖果的颜色总是多变的。可口的吮吸，诱人的味道总是让人迷惑留恋。割舍不掉糖果融化在口中甜美的味道。即使完全化为乌有，至少曾经含在口中的丝丝幸福还是难以忘怀。

      Candy影片中的希斯操着浓郁的澳洲口音，说话时仿佛口中就含有块指尖大的糖豆。影片开始在幸福的转盘中开始了两个人的故事，他们的爱很甜美，也很痛苦。幸福快乐总是那么简单，不论是什么方式，偷车也好，诈骗也罢。只要能搞到钱，搞到嗑药。就能在二人世界中臆想天伦之乐。这样的幸福就像转盘的转动总是短暂停留。

社会的万能之手是不会放过每一个生活在其中的人们，道德，家庭，信仰，责任。总是无时不刻考究着每一个生活在其中的人们。于是，这就成了他们甜蜜的负缀。爱不再是那么的简单单。

 

      影片中希斯在淡蓝色的泳池里游泳，与爱人缠绵。时间仿佛静止般美好。嗑药后的性能使他们忘记一切的烦恼。生活在现实中的我们何尝不想逃避。但是负缀总会在美好过后将他们拉回来，没有正式的工作，没有钱供养家庭，日日为衣食苦恼，穷竭似乎要把灵魂从躯体中逼出。一切的一切注定，这样的爱困难重重。

      希斯还是那么的爱candy，拼了一切的爱。可是还是无法挽回毒品对生理带来的恶果。伴着candy的流产，生活的希望就此永久的破没了。碌碌无为的度日，已不再是隔世桃园般的美好，理想与不能，社会的逼迫，痛苦与压抑充斥着彼此。

      家里的每一处房间，每一个墙壁，都成为了怨念的宿怨。

      candy,在墙壁的每一句话都是一把把利剑，直直的插在希斯的心中。活活的杀死了一颗满爱的心。

 

      分别后在餐馆的偶然相见，似乎彼此回归正常生活后能在从心开始。但此时，希斯抑郁已久的过往记忆如决堤的大坝，瞬间迸发。一个男人，泪水就这样无助的在伤过自己的女人面前留下。他还是深爱着她，还是爱得灵魂消散，凝神对望彼此后很久很久，sorry,I can't back.因为爱的太深已经再难以拾起过往。

      Candy依然是美的那么美妙，动心，糖果依然是甜美的耐人寻味，但是爱＋甜的等式左后并不是天堂。所以 ，偶尔含糖，是美好的回忆，时时含糖，却是蛀牙满口的后果。

      糖果的色彩依旧，不禁诱人，还能腻人。。。

Something about There's No Going Back
  去年暑假温习了一遍《梦之安魂曲》，看到有介绍关于毒品的电影，有一部是澳大利亚的电影，叫糖果。完全被那一幅merry go round 的海报所吸引，但怎么找都无果，十一假期又找了一回，寒假又找了好几次，五月份的时候一位豆友给我发了，可惜格式不对只看了前七分钟，打算在亚马逊上买原著的我在昨天生日的时候歪打正着下载了整部电影，也算是最好的礼物了。
 其实全片让我感觉最失望的是heaven太短，并没有极力渲染出两个人在毒品的欢愉中交织的太多美好，反倒是他们的争吵，嘶吼，叫喊有太多篇幅 ，不过也还恰到好处，尤其是candy抱怨电视声音，屋里光线，甚至圆珠笔划报纸的声音影响她睡觉的镜头，简直太真实。电影对于毒瘾发作的描摹更是一大亮点，candy怀孕后，二人决定戒毒，靠着Dan骗来的几千元，他们终于像每一对正常的夫妇，去大超市买果酱和饼干，搬进装有固定电话的公寓，躺上了铺有白色床单的twinbed，可惜一切关于戒毒的事都太难，密不透风的室内投射进苍白的阳光，床头的垃圾越攒越多，两个人因为全身难耐而痛苦的摩擦着，床单脏了，他们撒上爽身粉遮掩，直到有一天Candy实在忍不住拨打了她所谓的求助电话，在和Dan的撕打中流产了，这一切都是那么真实。
 之后的hell，他们回到了乡村，也许是孩子的早夭让他们的关系凝重起来，靠着每天喝美沙酮，他们还算活得清醒，没有了争吵，却只是皱着眉头的妥协，生活到了这里，再去追随那时的快乐简直是奢望，candy认识了新的朋友，他们也会一起嗑药，一起大笑，但当Dan问起candy是否和他上床时，正在作画Candy却好似疯了一般恨Dan，她开始用所有色彩鲜艳的化妆品在墙上写诗，那些颜色如糖果，本是生命的注解，如今却在墙壁上密密麻麻的排满了，倾吐着常人无法到达的忧乐。瘾君子的世界是扑朔迷离的，但当故事支离破碎成一首诗，我不得不承认candy是位伟大的艺术家，一句句无厘头的话，如一剂剂爱情毒针，不偏不倚的刺中了Dan的心脏，他又去找了Casper，而candy却因神经衰弱被送进了医院，出院后，Dan在打工的餐馆里和着阳光和苏打水结束了一切，cause there's no going back.
 对于结局，我起初觉得有些突兀，Dan以他们早夭孩子为理由拒绝了candy，独自坐在房中，但我们不妨大胆设想一下他真正的想法，如果Dan此时还没戒掉毒瘾，那candy父亲在医院的那句话一定让他想了很多，老人家只在乎她的女儿，而把他女儿搞得人不像人鬼不像鬼的，正是Dan，经过了长时间的冷静，Dan决定离开candy，让她继续自己的生活，一个不再被毒品牵制的生活，做回那个金发天使，那个完美的画家，忘掉一切，别被自己一直拖累。
但如果Dan也已戒掉毒瘾，他和Candy一样成了正常人，那现在就没有什么理由拒绝了啊，为什么要选择自己离开呢，我大胆认为，也许一开始，他们的爱情就是基于毒品之上的，又或者，根本没有爱情，首先，他们会ml，但是是在嗑药之后，他们会整天呆在一起，但是是在两人筹集毒资或是一起吸毒时，要找到一点点爱情的踪迹，还只是在heaven部分。还记得那个乡村的邻居吗，他和candy一起嗑药时，那种兴奋，快乐，与candy和Dan在一起时并没有什么不同，没有什么不可替代，只不过是两人在对方生命中有一个比较重要的角色罢了，一个糅杂了青春，毒品，迷幻，艺术，肉体，阳光，刺激等等于一体的角色，抑或是生命中一个重要的时期，那段有毒品，有糖果作伴的时期，片中那个milkman正是原著的作者Luke Davies，我在维基上查了他的故事，他是个澳大利亚著名的电视编剧，导演，他曾在八几年的时候沾染毒瘾，大抵来讲，他以他为原型写了这本书，也是为了祭奠自己一去不返的迷幻青春和曾经中过的毒，Dan对Candy说there's no going back.又何尝不是对自己的过去说再见？也许真正致幻的是他们的关系，真正有毒的是他们这种危险的感情
 街边的阳光照了进来，澳大利亚的天气真好啊，Dan饮下一杯不似之前绿色sodapop的纯净水，看着candy离去，独自坐在中餐馆，窗外一切都被隔绝了，这是电影的结束，小说的结束，那么大概也是生活真正的开始。