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3.12 John Green带着Charlie和Kristine去了Alabama 然后电视剧在Culver Greek开拍 6.19 我开始看John Green的原著小说<Looking For Alaska> 7.14 看完小说 7.25 电视剧杀青 7.27 出了第一个预告teaser 宣布10月18日在Hulu播出 9.13 正式预告 10.18 全季上线

书里的第一视角一直是Miles，一个光看书就觉得很适合Charlie来演的角色。也感谢Plummer小朋友跟着这个项目从要拍电影改成电视剧，波折了四年他还是来演了。 Miles应该算典型的文艺男了吧，为了seek a great perhaps就决定转学离开家。喜欢看名人传记但只看结尾，上课认真听讲，老师的宠儿同学的陌生人，以至于告别聚会都没有人来参加（书里来了两个同学）。 但是他自己知道他想要的，想要成为的远不止这些。去Culver Creek之前，就像是在原地打转犹豫不决，他知道自己需要往前走，但是前面的路和现在踩着的完全不一样，所以他决定转学，决定往前走，并且小心得希望这条路上有他寻找的great perhaps。遇到Chip这群人对他来说是真的人生转折点吧。 Chip aka Colonel，一个被Denny Love演活了的人。嘴炮和智慧并存的奖学金男孩，和Alaska一看就是一路人。但是他也是被编剧改的比较多的角色，小说里一直到感恩节吃完饭他才知道Alaska是告密者，但是他一直没有像剧里那样跟Alaksa闹僵，一直到最后一天晚上的Truth or dare他还在和大家一起开心得玩。 但是电视剧，肯定要制造矛盾的，所以他生气气到在她的门上写了"RAT"，当然我觉得都是情理之中的，毕竟后来Alaska被报复了之后他们还是回来帮她了。 但是我比较不理解的一点是，他被Eagle逮到了之后，也就是最后那天晚上，为什么他一直要埋怨是因为Alaska他才会被退学，说了一堆伤人的话以至于Takumi都听不下去了。是因为他想通过这样让Alaska恨他，减少她的愧疚感，还是编剧故意加了这一出来增加后来Alaska去世的悲剧效果？也许需要问问Josh是咋想的了。 Takumi，给我惊喜最大的人。小说里我好像没有特别关注过他，感觉是这个gang里最不起眼的人。但是剧里他好像充当了最swag的那个角色，总是一种看懂了大事小事，在上帝视角唱rap的感觉。可能就像他自己说的"some folks describe me as a visionary... Because I see the big picture." 而且Jay Lee举手投足都太嘻哈男孩了，戴着fox hat的时候真的又可爱又帅。 最后一位——Alaksa。她太美了以至于我知道这只个角色但是只要想到她去世了就觉得难过。 是不是外表看起来很洒脱的人内心都有最脆弱的一面，或者说作家们都喜欢这种形象吗。 截图的时候顺便把剧又看了一遍，很多细节包括塑料菊花还有妈妈去世都是从第一集就开始铺垫了的。电视剧改编比较明显的部分：她为了Pudge和Jake分手，小说里并没有。 可能这也是为啥我觉得我更喜欢电视剧的原因吧，她既然是一个独立果断的女性主义者，那应该是敢爱敢恨是非分明的人，所以决定和Pudge进一步发展的时候会和Jake分手。她在付出她在表态，她在听了Colonel的话之后和Miles保持距离，她要承受Miles对她的爱搭不理，看着他和Lara恩爱... 她好像从一开始就在失去，埋怨自己害了妈妈，失去父爱，失去Chip，Takumi，失去Jake，失去Miles，把Chip被退学的罪过压在自己身上，编剧在“写惨”Alaska这件事上真的尽了最大努力呢。 但就是因为这样，才显得最后一晚的那个吻对她多么重要了吧。 Life only exists now. Time spent on the future or the past is done at your own risk. Be present in this class. And when it's over, be present out there. It's the only way to actually cnnect with others, to see them as they truly are. 电视剧里Miles在车上偶然看到路边的Alaska，而小说里是被Colonel拉去她的寝室买烟才第一次见到她。但是whatever，一样都是一见钟情。 他们俩的感情其实没那么复杂，两个相似的灵魂互相吸引罢了。Alaska为了Miles和Jake分手，但是听了Colonel的垃圾忠告开始拒绝Miles，Miles应该真的被伤到了吧，可能他觉得Alaska对他不是那种感情，所以他开始留意那个对他很好的Lara了，但是他对Alaska的想法明显没有变。只有Alaska懂他的great perhaps是什么，我觉得编剧是故意强调了这三个人对这句话的反应的。 所以Truth or dare就成了互相坦白的契机，一切都说明白了之后，很自然的该发生的就发生了。 我对这部剧最期待的就是最后这场吻戏了，我希望它是我看过的最唯美最浪漫的戏，很感恩导演他真的做到了。 但是先看完小说的后果也来了，别人不知道吻戏结束之后代表什么，我知道。所以从电话声响到她哭着让Chip和Miles帮她引开Eagle，到Miles给她开门，看着她开车渐渐离开，我都是爆哭着看完的。 Miles不要让她走啊！ 你以后再也看不到Alaska了啊你知不知道！ 其实小说很多部分我都不是很懂，因为没找到翻译版所以啃了原著。 Miles和Alaska都是那种随时嘴里就能蹦出来几句我没听过的作家说的我没听过的话的人，所以大部分我就似懂非懂的过去了。 小说和电视剧一样是从Before写到After的。Alaska死的部分正好是小说60%的地方。我寻思着作者应该不会这么突然真的写死女主吧，就一直抱着幻想看完了，结果发现并没有转折。 所以为什么叫Looking For Alaska呢？明明知道她已经死了为什么还要looking for呢？小说和电视剧看完了我也不懂 因为制片人是原著作者，所以大多剧情都是照着书发展的。所以一开始还在想会不会很多惊喜和浪漫我已经知道了就没那么戳了，事实证明并没有。每场戏都拍得恰到好处，每句台词都说得恰到好处，每首配乐都配得近乎完美。 Alaska's last word to me were:"To be continued." And she was right. I must continue. I choose the labyrinth, even if there is no way out, even if we're all going, even if everything falls apart. I will always love Alaska Young, my crooked neighbor, with all my crooked heart. Thomas Edison's last words were, "It's very beautiful over there." I don't know where "there" is... But I believe it's somewhere. And I hope it's beautiful.

不知道为什么，或者说其实知道为什么，巨喜欢。无数次因为台词喜欢一个剧，然后因为剧去看原着，经常原著看完剧还没看完，还有好多歌也巨好听。觉得剧比书好看，书里的文字反而没有台词美。喜欢Alaska，喜欢Hyde，喜欢Miles（因为巨像我的一个学生，傻傻愣愣~），喜欢每一本Alaska手里拿着，念出来的书，正在看the general in his labyrinth 和 cat's cradle，估计剧没看完书就差不多就看完了。越来越不清楚自己喜欢一个剧到底是因为剧情，还是台词...总之，安安静静的讲故事就很好。

五年前，高中生的我在数学课上埋头读这本书，哭到不能自已。

今天，在异国他乡的我坐在书桌前看到最后一集那幕For Alaska Young的时候，再一次哭到不能自己。

我理解很多人说的绿叔叔的书“空洞得令人难以置信”，“quirky白主角傻白甜恋爱”。但是怎么说呢，生活不是一直高深的，偶尔能借这种小清新鸡汤文艺片能带领你宣泄一下被现实生活压迫的眼泪，心情还是很舒畅的。而且我感觉看片就像time/space travel，借着别人的视角感受他们的生活，体会一番酸甜苦辣，剧终后再从中完美脱身，感慨自己现实生活的美好，不也算是一种庆幸舒畅嘛。更况且这片有跌宕的情节（虽然稍稍狗血）有搞笑的场景，有每个人独特个性的展现，精致的镜头等等，所以绝对不能说是烂片。

我一开始觉得没啥好看，觉得演员不够好看，甚至还觉得有些小小失望。转折的契机是考完试无聊准备开始快进看，然后开始看到他们的各种prank就觉得wow真的拍出来了！读书的时候只能自己脑海里想象，很多放鞭炮奔跑eagle的doomed look都需要自己不断的去想象，但是现在全都展现在眼前，和记忆里的场景重合错开再重合，觉得真的好感慨好不可思议。于是就开始继续好好看下去了。

跟原著很像，很像很像。所以我好喜欢，有种重回很久很久以前记忆的感觉。不过场景拍摄真的超棒超美（可以看下绿叔叔channel里随便拍的culver creek就感觉就很乡村小学）；然后选角虽然看上去都是一般长相，但是看久了就觉得很青春很美很pure；soundtrack也超赞，和各种阳光慢镜头非常搭。

最后附上pudge的essay：

“Before I got here, I thought for a long time that the way out of the labyrinth was to pretend that it did not exist, to build a small self-sufficient world in a back corner of the endless maze and to pretend that I was not lost, but home. But that only led to a lonely life accompanied only by the last words of the already-dead, so I came here looking for a Great Perhaps, for real friends and a more-than-minor life. And then I screwed up and The Colonel screwed up and Takumi screwed up and she slipped through our fingers. And there’s no sugar-coating it: she deserved better friends.

When she fucked up, all those years ago, just a little girl terrified into paralysis, she collapsed into the enigma of herself. And I could have done that, but I saw where it led her. So I still believe in the Great Perhaps, and I can believe in it in spite of having lost her.

Because I will forget her, yes. That which came together will fall apart imperceptibly slowly, and I will forget, but she will forgive my forgetting, just as I forgive her for forgetting me and the Colonel and everyone but herself and her mom in those last moments she spent as a person. I know now that she forgives me for being dumb and scared and doing the dumb and scared thing. I know she forgives me, just as her mother forgives her. And here’s how I know:

I thought at first that she was just dead. Just darkness. Just a body being eaten by bugs. I thought about her a lot like that, as something’s meal. What was her - green eyes, half a smirk, the soft curves of her legs - would soon be nothing, just the bones I never saw. I thought about the slow process of becoming bone and then fossil and then coal that will, in millions of years, be mined by humans of the future, and how they would heat their homes with her, and then she would be smoke billowing out of smokestack, coating the atmosphere. I still think that sometimes, think that maybe “the afterlife” is just something we made up to ease the pain of loss, to make our time in the labyrinth bearable. Maybe she was just matter, and matter gets recycled.

But ultimately I do not believe that she was only matter. The rest of her must be recycled too. I believe now that we are greater than the sum of our parts. If you take Alaska’s genetic code and you add her life experiences and the relationships she had with people, and then you take the size and shape of her body, you do not get her. There is something else entirely. There is a part of her greater than the sum of her knowable parts. And that part has to go somewhere, because it cannot be destroyed.

Although no one will ever accuse me of being of a science student, one thing I learned from science classes is that energy is never created and never destroyed. And if Alaska took her own life, that is the hope I wish I could have given her. Forgetting her mother, failing her mother and her friends and herself - those are awful things, but she did not need to fold into herself and self-destruct. Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. When adults say, “Teenagers think they are invincible,” with that sly, stupid smile on their faces they don’t know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.

So I know she forgives me, just as I forgive her. Thomas Edison’s last words were, “It’s very beautiful over there.” I don’t know where there is, but I know it’s somewhere, and I hope it’s beautiful.”

- Miles ‘Pudge’ Halter

在我上幼儿园时候出版的书，我在初中时候读完的书，到现在我读大学了才改编成电视剧！！！这龟兔赛跑乌龟都赢了两圈了的速度

看完了以后对这本书感情上（？）理解不一样了，也可能是电视剧把感情放大了。人物上来说不喜欢剧版本里的主角，但相反把Alaska演得活灵活现。配角演技也很给力，拍摄也很给力，pacing很给力，都很给力，除了这次发现男性视角实在太明显了。即使女主是个不折不扣口口声声的女权主义者也改变不了她是个男性视角的产物。

下面quote一段letterboxd上评论家brat pitt给《寻找阿拉斯加》的观后感：

“when i was a sophomore in high school, i read Looking for Alaska in one breathless night. i finished at 5 in the morning, and, through tears, immediately texted my boyfriend at the time about how beautiful it was. i began trying to mold myself into alaska, an impossibly Cool Girl who speaks eloquently while also cursing with abandon, who has a room filled to the ceiling with books, who playfully snatches boys' hearts with her scrappy mischief. as we (miles, aka self-insert john green) kinda-sorta get to know her, we learn she's so unique because of her trauma and manic depression: "y'all smoke to enjoy it; i smoke to die," she says in one scene, cigarette dangling from her lips. i, and so many other now-grown women i've commiserated with about the book, wanted to be her so badly, but we never could. because alaska young didn't exist.”

女主Alaska虽然大多女生见了觉得羡慕大多男生见了觉得惹不起，但却是john green众多小说里最常见的女主性格：聪明，外表好看，但仿佛不像是活在这个时代（比如喜欢读纸质书听黑胶）。性格深沉，秘密繁多，把男主玩弄于股掌之间，看不透，摸不着。而男主则是外表不一定咋滴但肯定很nerdy，除了是个好·人·以外就没什么其他固定特征的角色。那么请问。这个亚子的女生，为什么会看得上这个亚子的男生？？为什么alaska这样的女生，会喜欢上miles？？因为这是位男性作家写的！！！！

如果这只是普通讲校园恋爱和人物成长的故事也就算了，但寻找阿拉斯加故事本身就基于“阿拉斯加”、围绕着阿拉斯加这个人物。阿拉斯加有多么叛逆、聪明，阿拉斯加懂得有多么多，阿拉斯加的吸烟和喝酒habits，阿拉斯加的破碎家庭...这一切都不是为了develop阿拉斯加这个人物，而是为了让阿拉斯加配合男主miles内心的成长...

就像反向霸道总裁小说一样，john green让高攀不起的女主爱上男主，并能让男主哭着喊着对她说“I love you”...但和霸总小说不一样的是，霸总不常见，女生却很常见...！！alaska一样的女生不存在，她只是所有青少年男性幻想的结合。Just because you are a character... doesn't mean you have character。

早些年前，看过一部以阿拉斯加小镇为故事发生地的剧 men in trees《情归何处》。一度喜欢开头是“情归”俩字的影视，比如情归阿拉巴马，情归新泽西。

所以，初看剧名，以为同样是以阿拉斯加为故事发生地。然后知道是误会。

看到第四集，感觉最好看一集。第一个：感恩节，大家伙离校，留下的高中男女生一起到男生宿舍搜刮爱情动作片，还能不用顾忌声音是否太大，还能边看边评，带出物化、父权制这类字眼，末了，来个调侃，实在是服了，能把看小黄片拍的如此清新脱俗。

第二个，偶遇学校讲宗教课程老师。从其口中，讲述一个让人唏嘘伤感的断背山。老师原在伯克利教政治，一见钟情的爱人死后，来到中学教宗教，三大宗教。两次上课场景，给人感觉很博学，反正是我喜欢的那种老师。对了，他只有一个肺。有条狗。

第三个，感恩节上校家感恩节晚餐。

看剧多了，认出校长是老面孔，《副总统》中那个傻大个。

当然，这不是另一部有类似话题的青春校园剧《十三个原因》。那部剧，主题曲好听啊，配搭剧情剪接MV。

写到这，很害羞。明明是要奔四的人。

结尾，上校的母亲对儿子说，那女孩，比你想象的孤独。

I will always love Alaska, my crooked neighbor, with all my crooked heart.

Alaska不仅仅是一个漂亮女孩。

她捉摸不透，上一秒霸气侧漏地进行着prank，下一秒眉头紧皱坐在河边抽烟。You all smoke to enjoy, I smoke to die.

她可以玩笑似地给你普及性知识，也可以一本正经地叫你停止物化女性。

文学涵养极高的她对于在自己喜欢的课堂上因维护朋友而被赶出去这种事情毫不在乎。

聪明如她，觉得最有水平的事情竟然是策划出一个顶级prank。

即使可以和学校里的有钱人混得很好，她也更愿意和真正的聪明人做朋友。

这就是Alaska。这种女孩真的太少见了。我是一个女孩子我都喜欢她。

她真的在做自己，即便真实的自己略微有点矫情，有点bitch，做事也有点不计后果。

很喜欢美国电视剧里面对女性角色的多元呈现。每个个体都很复杂。每个个体之间可能有相似性，但真正迷人的是特异性。世界上不是只有好女孩和坏女孩之分。

这部剧惊喜的地方不只有Alaska，其他配角表现也很精彩。最后一集拍得很好，让我释怀了，本来我是很讨厌Sara那边的人的。我觉得他们之前的举止间接致使了她的死。但看完最后一集，我想她的死不管是意外还是一种选择，在最后那一刻，都和这些人没什么太大的关系，她在对抗自己。可能她已经想清楚了，对她来说，死亡是走出迷宫的唯一方式。她知道她的朋友们也在迷宫当中，但他们可以有其他方式，她想让他们知道他们有。

除此之外，Alaska一帮人在对抗一些只要活着就会碰到的东西 unfairness injustice 在一个小小的高中就可以看出来 很多人很早之前就停止了对抗 但他们在坚持着 即便会被说成没有意义 但what the hell

最后我在想：我们真能走出痛苦的迷宫吗？也许不能，但好好活着是唯一的出路吧。只要活着，就有机会。

附上Miles最后独白中的一段：

Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. When adults say, “Teenagers think they are invincible,” with that sly, stupid smile on their faces they don’t know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations.

这是Alaska给他们的最好的礼物。